I'm a fraud!!!!

I'm a fraud!!!
I'm fat!!!!
There's no way I can run for 1km, let alone 8km without walking!!!!
You're doing 'Lean and Fit' program, how ridiculous!!!  There's no way you're lean and fit!!!

My oh my the stupid debilitating self talk that goes on in my head!!!!  Why can't our heads catch up with our bodies.  It took me half an hour to get out of bed this morning to go for my long run - by myself.  During the week I usually run with my lovely 9 year old border collie, but sometimes he has slow days and he definitely has a few pee stops which is a little pit stop for me.  Then on Saturdays I run with my SSS buddy, where we chat away and encourage each other.

Today my buddy had to work, so I was going to do my long run by myself.  What a dilemma even getting out of bed and for the first 2km the silly debilitating self talk was going on.

Some days I still don't believe I'm in my 80s, slowly going down.  I wake up thinking that this weight loss is just a tease and I'm going to wake up with all the weight back on.

I'm still getting compliments, even from people I say on a daily/weekly basis.  It's as if sometimes I must just look slimmer (still got a long way to go, but I'm getting there).

Why does it take so long for our head to catch up with our body.

On a positive note, I ran (5 min walk at the beginning and end) and I ran.  My workout ended up being 9.25km, in 1 hour 10 mins - the longest distance I've ever run.   It still blows me away that 6 months ago I could barely run for 30 seconds and now I'm able to run for over an hour.

I ran the whole way around our very hilly suburb and I made it home!!!  So, silly little self doubting Leprachaun sitting on my shoulder when I go for a run, could you very kindly piss off and go and annoy someone else.

This week I surprised myself with another wow!!!  I registered for two fun runs;

Sunday 4th August, 7km Bay Run

and Sunday September 22, 9km Blackmores Running Festival

So, with all the challenges of dealing with what goes on in our heads, I'm setting myself goals, fun runs to aim for.